Might I get the life in blue surrounding?

I wish I would be a mermaid so that I wouldn't have been in this selfish world. Where every single girl is facing challenges & getting hurt by others. "Oh, dear Lord!!" I want to be a sea-maid, if I will cry, then nobody will able to see the rain of my eyes. I think, I am getting lost in this fancy world. Dear God! Please come and help me from this evil of love. I don't want to drown myself in this ocean of soreness, where every single soul is in pain. I am glad that I am expressing my grief emotion in front of the God because I want my next life in the seashore, where I would get my love and there would be a seaway for my seabed, and then nobody will care about Dodo and Mola. I want to be a mermaid, so I will go to the abyssal and will take pleasure with pelagic & surf, and also, I will enjoy my hadal and an oyster bed. I wish I will get a peaceful place in Seychelles and the Caribbean Sea so that no one can see me and I will get happiness from...